Craziness Vs. Missiness

What we all do, is always an important, funnier and crazy part of our life. Believe it or not, you always smile back on older memories, no matter how much deadly, cursed or cry-outy thing it may be. You always end up smiling and think "Well that was awkward but I enjoyed it really." It is all that experience that binds you, makes you, bolds you. We all need someone to share it out everything. To talk about all crazy things you did, the mind-blowing unhappening things you had imagined. We need to be happy. Of course no one's wanna be sad. Hang in there readers cause' you have to cherish the moments ever after.

Really if I must say - missing somebody is the most hardest part of life. If you can't meet someone of whom you are so fond of and you can't say anything to them. You are already died at that point.

I too have that someone whom I have cared for from the starting. It's true that I met her in The Most Popular Social Networking Website Facebook. And I know it's not appropriate to propose someone to be your girlfriend whom you have not met even.

But you also know how it hurts to even think that you can never meet her in person. Fear creeps you into death and we shed tears on the mere fact that she will never be yours. Well you know things go even more bad when that girl tends to be your sister. Being with an un-original sister-like girl and thinking mad things really makes situations grave. You can be certain though that if the girl you like the most is your Facebook sister (not real blood sister), then things are turning real bad for you because you are going to be in a great confusion and stress.

Initially, you will greet her with being the world's best sister tag for her. And if I say so she really is. After sometime she will go easy on you, be friendly with you, Use some very lovely tags as "awww" etc. But then you eventually start liking her and this is where boys mess with themselves. They get into 3 choices literally and all of them are a bit deadly.

1) Tell her the truth and wait forever for a reply. There are 3 things here the girl would do
(i)Yes I love you too, but as a sister.
(ii) I don't love you. I like another guy. He is more handsome and lovely.
(iii) Block you forever and leave you.

2) Try to force her out of your life.
But she says "You are the best brother in the whole world. You can't leave me, It would really hurt me." (I don't know how to deal with this).

3) Never tell her that you love her and suffer internally for years until you find someone else to talk to.


These 3 choices really are traps and I have imagined all of them. I am completely dead, because if I leave her it hurts her and I would never want to hurt her. If I tell her that I love her, then too she will get hurt on the fact that her only promising loving brother proposes her to be his girlfriend. And if I let myself control then it kills me each day. Do anything but in the end I always suffer. Well she's cute and lovely and I am black-dark and sturdy. There's no way, you get along with a girl like that.

I don't know what to do. Do anybody happen to have any ideas.  :(  :(

First Winner

This one is one of my favorite parts of my life till now. I like it because it tells you completely about human nature and a child's so innocent and immature mind.

It is really tempting if you get lower grades in subjects, But it devastating if your friend gets a higher grade than you. Same was the case with me in Khandwa.  It was time of class tests. As I had already told you that the education system in Khandwa was so backward that I didn't even to study anything and I could just get marks easily. And it got so true when the results of our Unit Tests appeared before me.

My class teacher called me in front of the class and told me that I had secured the first rank in class. I was somewhat happy, but there wasn't the satisfaction of achieving great heights. Because everything became so easy and I didn't have to do much. She gave me the First Ranker Badge. Initially, I didn't know why I am being made so popular day by day. Though I was the First Winner now.

After I had topped the class. Students from different parts of the benches started interacting with me. I got numerous friends and all of them started to talk to me. Then I remembered that how things changed from me being an unknown alien to a good friend.

I learnt then that, people interact with those who really do something. They just don't care about anyone new and backward or outsiders. But once you achieve something, everybody gets attracted towards you.

Girls didn't seem very much to take any interest . I didn't meant them to either. They are really jealous creatures. One big explanation was that I wasn't handsome. That is enough to let you know your standards among girls.

"Achievement is not something you achieve with pleasure, it is something achieved with hard work, determination, curiosity ,patience and love." 

The First Time In New School

One of the main problems after getting transferred is to find a good school there. We had to take a decision fast. Near our home was a small school named "Scholars Den". As I was a kid my father thought that a reputed school nearby the house is better. So I took admission there soon and it was a easy process as I got admission directly. 

I had to resume school after 4 days of taking admission. We got all the books and uniforms from the market. And That Tuesday I pursuited for my first day in that small,wonderful,heart-beating school where I will find the love of true friends and an unexpected convuljant attraction towards girls. I didn't expect any of these when I got there. I remember that day freshly in my mind. 

As I didn't know anybody there and I had trouble finding my class "6th Blue".It was actually at the basement to the right. But I revolved around the whole school searching it. But Finally I was able to recognize my class there and I sat down there. Students came into the class and went just like that didn't care about me. No one bothered about a new guy in the class. 

The assembly time came soon. We assembled in disciplined queues and went to the ground. The first prayer was somehow difficult and I just muttered and listened carefully. Then the pledge started. In our old school, we pledged by straightening our right arm completely. But in here, they just raise there hand in a way like they are giving blessings to anyone. This was really confusing but I just followed the way the students around me did. The only thing I knew there in the assembly was "The National Anthem". And believe me I had never sing the national anthem more precisely and lovely like I did that day. (But this is just a lie because I sing it better everyday).

Then we darted to our respective classes and everybody started talking. I remained silent there as nobody wanted to talk to me. Then our class teacher came, She was very lovely and cute. She was a English Teacher and very interactive too. She noticed me and I gave them my introduction. We communicated in English much fine. The students glared at me like I was an alien. 

I sat down and started studying. Though there were other students who took admission there for the first time. But they were all communicating well. I was the only idiot there who looked like an idiot and a Nerd.

Many days passed by like the same and I didn't talk to all of them. One day our games teacher saw me alone. Her name was "Monica Mam". She called me and asked whether I have good friends or not. I said I am good I have my friends. She saw my lie and loneliness. As it was break time, she took me with her to the ground and told me to interact with that group of guys. She pointed me to a group of boys of my own class. They were like fighting with each other. I joined them and started talking. It was easy as Monica mam introduced me to everybody. It felt good as I now had a set of lovely friends. Their names were Ayush,Chetan,Raja,Aradhya. 

"You can't survive anywhere if you don't have friends. They are the oxygen of our hearts."

The First Hear

It is a bit awkward when you hear some name for the first time isn't it. The same case pursued me when the news of transferring again exploded. It was night-time that day, My bro, me and my father were in the Mall. Suddenly my father got "The Most Unexpected call". He talked to them for about 10 mins. Then he turned to us and told that we have been transferred to 'Khandwa this time. I asked him "Where is Khandwa , in Chatthisgarh or Madhya Pradesh"."It's in M.P." He replied.

It was the most mysterious name I have ever heard. I was not feeling good about going there. We came home and Dad told us that we will have to move to Khandwa in 2 months. Wow, thats a great news. I am left with 2 months to enjoy myself here with my best friends. 

And though I was wrong again. I got a very much less time because we had to prepare for going to Khandwa far more. It was disastrous that I couldn't meet my friends now for another three years. I met my nearby friends swiftly and dashed home.

Two months didn't seem so long this time. Maybe God wanted to see Khandwa soon and explore the wonders of the people who live in that small city.

That day came soon. We loaded all the materials in the truck and ordered it to go to Khandwa. We went to station and waited for the train. In some minutes I was in the train to Khandwa. WE reached that city in about 5 hours. There was a car waiting for us. A friend of my father recieved us there. His name was "Mudliyar", That's what we called him. He was a nice guy and we went through the up-down stones of Khandwa's roads. We reached home and met with everybody. Our luggage was waiting for us there beforehand and they had unloaded it before we came. 

We then met those kind old people under whose supervision we had to live in that so-called lovely home. It was awesome for some time. But we then had to make the house look beautiful.This is where the whole messy thing starts. Keep that thing, this one here and stuffs. Then you have clean the whole house of dust, turning it to a clean beautiful palace-like structure. Though this is what we learn in life. 

"Clean your problems not solve them. Problems are made to learn,not to disgrace".